Parenting starts before marriage and the first child you’ll raise is yourself.

The Long Weekend.

Bismillahirahmanirahim!!!

Alhamdulillah for the long weekend that has past! Indeed, I’ve enjoyed myself the past 3days back in school! :) YAY!

1. NPMSS Plug In Camp

I signed up for Plug In with sister. Unknowingly, Zah also went for it! So at least, tak sunyi sangat la, hehe. I’ve never imagined myself going for the camp though. However, after the whole 3 days, I really wondered what was stopping me from being a part of this family back in Year 1? These people that I’ve met are such nice individuals and they constantly remind me of Allah swt. I have so much to learn from each of them. All in all, I really like the 3rd day most because I felt that it was the day when I learnt the most about Rasullulah s.a.w. It was a memorable camp and Alhamdulillah, it’s really worth the weekends.

Some photos to sum it up!

The lovely girls from Yemen! :)

Busy making a snack using the ingredients we have based on Rasullulah s.a.w makanan kegemaran! I’m making it a habit to drink milk every morning because milk is one of Nabi Muhammad s.a.w favourite food!

Solat Maghrib. When the bilal calls out the Azan, it always brings me chills because whoever the bilal was on Day2, he had a really beautiful melodic voice. 

NP Silat! Their short performance was really superb! Especially Syuhada, if I’m not wrong. You should have seen the way she fights and smile at the same time. Truly mesmerizing! I hope sis stays committed to NP Silat! Then I can go watch more of these, haha!

The Nasyid Boys! Really talented and adorable! I really love their second song but I don’t know what’s the title! :(

NPMSS one big family <3

And there he is! The President for NPMSS! :) Ended the camp with dua’s. Seriously, I love this camp a lot.

Maybe one of the reasons why I enjoyed this camp was because it was the first time I felt so connected to His Ummah. This camp really made me thirst for more opportunities to be among those He loves, and those who loves Him dearly. And now, I’m running to Him. Insyallah, I’ll be the best role example I can be for myself. And I know, this will be the best birthday present I can ever give to me.

2. Ambassadors Inauguration

Sissy in Ambassadors! :)

This Minah Zah! :) So glad I got to know her better, Alhamdulillah!

And I had the opportunity to act with BFFL!!! :)

Masyallah, I am a Year 3 already. And soon, I’ll be graduating. But that’s in months. In a few weeks time, Ramadhan is coming. Oh Ya Allah, let me reach Ramadhan 2012. These days have been hard. But I know that I can overcome ur trials because You will never burden Your slave with what He couldn’t take. I am running to You, Ya Allah. Step by step, Alhamdulillah. I need You, Ya Allah. I need You. 

What I’ve become.

When I am alone, I remind myself again and again, never to become the person I was back then. Leave, Mardi. Leave that life before everything is all too late.

My Best Friend, Hui Ling.

Alhamdulillah! I am finishing my Interim Report! And look at this, this is what my bestie did. She helped me check my report and gave a VERY COMPREHENSIVE feedback! Awwwwwwwh. I just love her to bits. Will re-read it by tmr, format it nicely and send for draft to make sure I am within the plagiarism limit! Syukur, Ya Allah!

Bottom of the heart.

I haven’t been the best example of a Muslim. Sometimes, I disappoint myself too often only to return to You after realizing what I’m missing out. But everytime when I return to You, You never fail to welcome me once more. Syukur Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah. I’ve learnt that I must grab the opportunities and chances when You are still here, believing that I will change. Thank you, Ya Allah. I seek from You, Ya Allah, to cleanse my heart and make me a better Muslim. Please guide me to those You love and who loves You. Open up my heart and guide me to Your light. I am nothing without You. I am learning Ya Allah. If getting closer to you means taking away everything that I have, please take them away.  Please Ya Allah, I need you. You are The Creater of all things and mankind, the Most Magnificent, The Most Forgiving. Please guide me, Ya Allah. And for everything that I have sinned, please, Ya Allah, please forgive me.

Mayday Parade - Stay

How do I begin writing this?

I miss you? I still think about you?

But I don’t know what is this feeling. Was it just a memory? Or did it really happen? 

I’ve forgotten how much I love listening to these kind of bands. After all, you made me start to like them. I think about you here and now. But I never spoke of it to anyone. Who can understand this feeling that comes to the mind like a dormant volcano. When I close my eyes, I can always remember how it feels. That image when you walked past my class or even that moment when you waited for me in my class till late. Furthermore, no one has ever asked me about the person who has held a piece of my heart for the longest time.

I am happy even watching you silently from afar. The first time I heard Adele’s “Someone Like You”, your name instantly came to my lips. I used to have such a deep connection with the song because indeed, I did want to find another boy like you.

However, as life moves on, I learnt so many things about myself and my emotions. I don’t deny that at this point in life, I am still searching for inner peace and I am still trying to find out who I really am.

All I could guess is at that point in life, I needed you to be my best friend. And we needed to end it right away before anything started. As such, only God knows why we went through that phase. But because it happened, my life changed.

But many praises to The Almighty and The All-Knowing. Alhamdulillah for everything that has happened between us and to everything that has yet to come. For the years that have passed and to the years that will come, I am happy that I have a friend in you. Like you said, every friendship will end with;

“Thank you for the memories, F.R.”

And Insyallah, if we do meet again, would you say “Hello” to me?

:’)